I am Shannon and my husband is Chris. This is a place to share and process struggles related to miscarriages, eating disorders, and Shannon's struggle with sexual abuse. We have found that joy, exempt of Christ, is often bittersweet in this life. We look forward to heaven where sweetness will abound and bitterness will be gone.
Monday, October 25, 2010
fears
I fear that Samantha is the only child I will ever have.
There, I said it...that's one of my biggest fears.
I fear I will miscarry again or lose a baby shortly after birth.
I can understand how you'd feel that way. I sometimes feel like I will never have children. I have nothing to back it up...it's just a feeling I have. It doesn't matter if your head knows there's a more likely chance that you will have more children, your heart is always louder.
God's plan for you is perfect...and will certainly involve kids. Whether you give birth to them or not, kid's are a part of your life now and always will be! I treasure you and Chris in my life...and many will be in your life as well.
I can understand how you'd feel that way. I sometimes feel like I will never have children. I have nothing to back it up...it's just a feeling I have. It doesn't matter if your head knows there's a more likely chance that you will have more children, your heart is always louder.
ReplyDeleteGod's plan for you is perfect...and will certainly involve kids. Whether you give birth to them or not, kid's are a part of your life now and always will be! I treasure you and Chris in my life...and many will be in your life as well.
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