I've heard it said that when a parent loses a child they grieve not only what that child was but also all the possibilities. I grieve the future we would have had. In my mind, I was going to pass away first so Samantha was forever going to be in our life. Sadly, life doesn't always work out how we expect. Here's my list of what I'll miss:
1) Her birth---I was so looking forward to delivering her and holding her and looking her in the eyes and us telling her we loved her so much and we were her mommy and daddy and promising to always take care of her.
2) Her first smile
3) Her first tooth
4) Her first laugh
5) First steps
6) First words
7) Her baptism
8) Kisses and hugs
9) I love you, Mommy
10) Christmas gifts she made herself
This is too hard....I'll write more later.
~Shannon
