Every milestone

I just have to say...

Because this is my place to share things...

Every milestone with this baby makes me miss Samantha, Dominic, and Noah a whole lot.

A whole lot.

Because I missed out on all of theirs.

And no, it doesn't make me feel better that I wouldn't have Sprout if it wasn't for their losses. I could never choose between two of my children and putting them in the fate of time box doesn't make me feel better. My heart, regardless of reality, wants all four of our children in our home now...but that's not how life is.

Anyhow, I feel a little better now that I shared this. It's good to be real here.

~Shannon

~Shannon

Little blessings

The baby room is painted. Soon to become a true nursery...as furniture and things fill it up!

Chris and I have a good plan for child care figured out between the two of us. We really didn't want to have to use outside childcare, not even family or friends too often....We really wanted to, as parents, provide this baby care ourselves, as much as possible. He will be doing nursing school part time and I will be working part-time. This will be a good transition for both of us, I think, allowing all three of us to have time as a family...as well as allowing our child sufficient parental attention.

We have our registry done. Wow.

Our twenty week ultrasound is set up.

We have started talking about baptism, godparents, names, etc.

We are moving in the right direction of baby-hood. This is a blessing!

~Shannon

18 weeks pregnant

Tomorrow I will be eighteen weeks pregnant.

That's thrilling.

And yet, I'm still terrified something is wrong.

Why? Nothing has been wrong. I'm still afraid that something is wrong....

I'm hoping all is well...

I'm so grateful for my husband, my sister B, and my best friends...because with them....JUST knowing that they care and they seem to 'get it' better than the average person helps me.......I love them. So much.

But every day is a day closer.
~Shannon