Sometimes I am so happy. I feel at least semi-normal and then I feel tears starting up. They say time makes everything easier but for me, it's also harder. Every day and the future ahead makes me realize how much of life Samantha is missing. I miss her so badly. I feel like it will be even harder after April 3, 2010. I better be pregnant by then (I feel like a small child begging God) or I am going to be so depressed. But even with other children, I will always see the gap where Samantha should have been. My sweet Peep....my little girl. I miss her. I wish I could feel her moving and growing inside of me.
It wasn't meant to be like this. We weren't supposed to live in a fallen world. We made one very bad sinful decision and corruption and death set in. Sadly this is the world we are stuck in until Jesus calls us home or returns to take us with Him.
Pressing on,
Shannon
Thursday, November 4, 2010
I'm waiting but....I will praise you
Heavenly Father,
I'm waiting on you and your will for our lives. It's hard sometimes. But I am trusting. I wait on you, Lord. I wait and know that your will is always done. And that you are perfect. All I have is yours. All I am is yours. I am so blessed to be your child. I'm so glad you gave me life. I'm so glad you gave us Samantha and that you gave her life. We love her but we love you even more and we know that you love her even more. That's the way it should be. We know that you love us. We trust that nothing that happens to us hasn't gone through you first. We believe your promise to work all things out for our good. In my heart, I pray that you get all the glory through our lives in whatever it may be. Whether it is the healing that you offer or the good things that come from us through you, you deserve all the glory and praise because you are an awesome and amazing God. We love knowing that you take care of us and seeing what you have in store for our lives. We trust you. If you are willing, tell Samantha that her mommy and her daddy love her very much and can't wait until we are together again in heaven. It will be glorious. Thank you, Lord.
Amen....and Love, Shannon
I'm waiting on you and your will for our lives. It's hard sometimes. But I am trusting. I wait on you, Lord. I wait and know that your will is always done. And that you are perfect. All I have is yours. All I am is yours. I am so blessed to be your child. I'm so glad you gave me life. I'm so glad you gave us Samantha and that you gave her life. We love her but we love you even more and we know that you love her even more. That's the way it should be. We know that you love us. We trust that nothing that happens to us hasn't gone through you first. We believe your promise to work all things out for our good. In my heart, I pray that you get all the glory through our lives in whatever it may be. Whether it is the healing that you offer or the good things that come from us through you, you deserve all the glory and praise because you are an awesome and amazing God. We love knowing that you take care of us and seeing what you have in store for our lives. We trust you. If you are willing, tell Samantha that her mommy and her daddy love her very much and can't wait until we are together again in heaven. It will be glorious. Thank you, Lord.
Amen....and Love, Shannon
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