What's this about?

I am Shannon and my husband is Chris. This is a place to share and process struggles related to miscarriages, eating disorders, and Shannon's struggle with sexual abuse. We have found that joy, exempt of Christ, is often bittersweet in this life. We look forward to heaven where sweetness will abound and bitterness will be gone.







Sunday, October 24, 2010

Feeling like a flop

Ever since the miscarriage, I've felt like a flop. I'm trying so hard to keep it all straight and together and I just can't focus. I'm so frustrated with myself. This job has gone super well for me in the past year and a half. My boss thinks I've done a fantastic job so far and he's given the best evaluations possible. I feel like I've done decently. But in this last month, I don't know...I just feel so disconnected. And now I forgot to email something off that HAD to be in by Friday at 5 PM. I'm so irritated with myself. I wish I could die but I know that is not an option. Just frustrated. I am functioning better and better but still not back to normal. I always have to remind myself that the worst thing that could happen is I could get fired (which is highly unlikely over this one mistake) but no one and nothing can take me away from Jesus.

I just.....grr........

Shannon

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