Lamentations 3:22-24 The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases, his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is thy faithfulness.
Last night, I was working on Christmas presents that I am giving out this year. As I worked and created things, I was praying. I've been quiet lately. I used to talk on the phone, watch TV, prepare dinner, and weight lift all at the same time. Yeah right...now it's one or the other. Which I am okay with. I am more detail-oriented than I used to be too so no complaints there. As I sat, I prayed. I spend a lot of time in quiet communication and prayer with God now just needing His presence. I said "Lord, I just miss my baby. It hurts..." And I was surprised when He wasn't holier than thou with me and instead related and spoke to my heart and I said "I know it hurts. I lost my Son once and it hurt so badly."
I had forgotten all about that. God willingly gave up His only son and sacrificed Him for us. Could I have done that with Samantha Peep? I don't know that I could have...That's why I so desperately needed a Savior. My Heavenly Father did what I could never do. And He knows my hurt...He's been there. The thing that amazes me most is that He willingly chose that hurt to save the world. Willingly. Out of love. That's pretty deep.
I also loved that my prayer last night was so relational. I simply felt the Holy Spirit come and sit with me and just be with me. There was no condemning me for feeling the way I did. There was no lecturing. There was simply presence and peace. And gentle, loving, nurturing words. My heart still hurts but I felt it being held by God.
What A Friend We Have In Jesus (by Joseph Scriven, 1855)
What a friend we have in Jesus
All our sins and griefs to bear
What a privilege to carry
Everything to God in prayer
Oh what peace we often forfeit
Oh what needless pain we bear
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer
~Shannon
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