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I am Shannon and my husband is Chris. This is a place to share and process struggles related to miscarriages, eating disorders, and Shannon's struggle with sexual abuse. We have found that joy, exempt of Christ, is often bittersweet in this life. We look forward to heaven where sweetness will abound and bitterness will be gone.







Friday, October 15, 2010

Miscarried Babies

Is it bad that I wish that I had miscarried at home or asked to see my baby and remains of my uterus? On the ultrasound, Samantha Peep (though gone) finally looked more like a little person than she did at 6.7 weeks. It's driving me crazy. I kept trying to envision.

Today, I just did an image search on miscarried 9 week babies. I wanted to see what my little Samantha might have looked like. For some reason (which probably no one else gets) it brought me comfort, a little more closure, and peace, to see this sweet little baby all curled up...I envision her sleeping and resting and just having drifted and flown off to Jesus peacefully. It is my hope that is how her transition from earth to heaven was like that.

Love you, baby.

~Shannon
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  1. Sarah JoyOctober 19, 2010 at 5:01 PM

    Shannon, I read a book about miscarriage, and it said that it might be helpful to see the remains if you can, or to look at images of what your baby would have looked like at the time. So no, you are not crazy! I was going to quote it for you, but the book has disappeared off the shelf. Perhaps someone else needed it. Love you!

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