Why?

Why is today so hard? I'm having a hard time focusing on anything but Samantha today. I miss her.

Last night, I was running errands. As I parked my car, I looked outside and a little girl and her dad (I assume) were walking to their vehicle. This little girl had a blonde ponytail and she had a skip in her step. At one point, she looked at my car and she just locked eyes with me for a second and then she skipped off to her car. I broke down. I know that (this side of heaven) Samantha will never look me in the eye. I also loved the special way the little girl interacted with her dad. There was something about the way she moved her shoulders and smiled while she was responding to him. More than anything, I want to have that special relationship with Samantha.

I feel cheated.

And sad...so sad.

~Shannon