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I am Shannon and my husband is Chris. This is a place to share and process struggles related to miscarriages, eating disorders, and Shannon's struggle with sexual abuse. We have found that joy, exempt of Christ, is often bittersweet in this life. We look forward to heaven where sweetness will abound and bitterness will be gone.







Thursday, October 7, 2010

Yearn for heaven?

Is it bad that right now I am yearning for heaven?  I have always been heaven-bound and yearned to be there but these days my heart just desires it more and more. My dear friend Sarah Joy and I (in college days) used to have days where we just wanted to be in front of Jesus. Now that Samantha Peep awaits there, I only yearn more for heaven. Now don't get me wrong, I am not suicidal. God is the only one who decides life and death. But....I find myself praying more and more 'come quickly, Lord Jesus, come quickly.' If He returned today, I would be consumed with that eternal joy that I can only look forward to for now. Samantha Peep, baby, you've left me yearning heavenbound.

~Shannon

2 comments:

  1. Nope, it's not wrong to long for heaven. I was going to write this even before you mentioned me! But yes, I remember that, at Offerings. I can't wait to hug Jesus! And now you are looking forward to hugging Samantha, too.

    I also wanted to thank you again for posting these thoughts. I believe that going through this with you will one day be useful in my deaconess ministry. I'm sorry you have to go through it, but I'm glad you are able to share, out of your grief.

    I love you! my Baby loves you and Samantha Peep too - he can't possibly be in me without feeling the love I have for you both!

    LOVE,
    Sarah Joy

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  2. Not that it's similar at all, but I often think about my grandfather in heaven. It broke my heart when he died, and I still think of him often. I wonder if he's looking down, if he's proud of me. I don't think it works that way, but it's nice to think about.

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