Life Update

So...here's the status on my life. :)

I had a fantastic weekend with my dear friend EEJ. She is such a blessing to me. We shopped on Saturday morning and went exploring on boulders and rocks and hiking-ish around some waterfalls a couple hours south of us. Then we rode our local streetcar. Sunday, we went to church and then we carved pumpkins before EE had to leave. I miss her already.

She really blessed me in one aspect particularly. She cross-stitched a sunflower with Samantha's name above it. She left it up to us whether to frame it or use it as a bookmark. I will most definitely be framing it and will always remember our daughter when we look at it. Thank you, EE, for loving Samantha. You have truly blessed me. When I said I missed Samantha this weekend (which I was totally comfortable to say around my dear friend) she simply said that she missed her niece too. I am so blessed to have two biological sisters whom I adore, two sister in laws that I am so glad to count as family now, and five friends from college who are as close as any sister and I credit that to us being Christian sisters through the blood of Christ.

Yesterday, I had a meltdown. I'm struggling with not being angry. But sometimes it's hard. I had a period so I know that I am not currently pregnant and I think that really upset me. The holidays are coming up and we all know (we meaning those who understand this) how difficult they can be when there are emotional and family struggles. My heart just hurts.....I want Samantha back so badly.

That's about all for right now...more to come later.

~Shannon