Thankful

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone. Today it is a struggle to be thankful but at the same time, it comes easy to be thankful when I reflect on the blessings that I have been given. I am loved by many, in the past year blessed by Samantha, and have been blessed by God's grace and mercy and eternal love. Could it be better than that? That's when I start to find myself being ungrateful. I want my baby! But I trust that God has truly taken care of  all things and has kept His promise to provide for us and so I can't really be mad. I just can't. God is so good.

Last night, Chris and I celebrated. We enjoyed an awesome turkey breast roasted in the oven, green bean and corn casserole, mashed potatoes, stuffing, and jello (with mandarin oranges and marshmallows in it!) and it was neat for me to make our first "classic" holiday meal. We were pretty excited. Then we played Madden football on the PS2 and played Lions versus Colts. We were recreating the tradition my family has every year of watching the Lions on TV....losing! In true fashion, Chris and I lost to the Colts...Our phrase throughout the game was "It's okay that we are losing. We are the Lions. The Lions are SUPPOSED to lose. Happy Thanksgiving." He he....Good times. Then we started writing some music and lyrics together. It was pretty exciting when we actually kind of got some songs going. We are doing this just for fun as a spiritual worship creative activity that the two of us can engage in. It's neat though.

Today, I missed Samantha. I think it's hard for me not to be pregnant right now. With the celebratory nature of things around us, I want to be overjoyed. And don't get me wrong, I am blessed but I am still sad too! I suppose that is understandable. Yesterday, I heard an awesome reminder on K-love that Jesus was called a 'man of sorrows' and that He suffered many things. That reassured me. After all, I'm not grieving as one who is lost but grieving with hope. It is only human that I would miss my child.

Blessings and Happy Thanksgiving!
Shannon