Sometimes I am so happy. I feel at least semi-normal and then I feel tears starting up. They say time makes everything easier but for me, it's also harder. Every day and the future ahead makes me realize how much of life Samantha is missing. I miss her so badly. I feel like it will be even harder after April 3, 2010. I better be pregnant by then (I feel like a small child begging God) or I am going to be so depressed. But even with other children, I will always see the gap where Samantha should have been. My sweet Peep....my little girl. I miss her. I wish I could feel her moving and growing inside of me.
It wasn't meant to be like this. We weren't supposed to live in a fallen world. We made one very bad sinful decision and corruption and death set in. Sadly this is the world we are stuck in until Jesus calls us home or returns to take us with Him.
Pressing on,
Shannon
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