15.5 weeks pregnant

Yes, it's true. I am just about fifteen and a half weeks pregnant. I am starting to accept that there is a child inside of me and that there is a good possibility that this child will come home with us in October. It's an incredible feeling. I feel so blessed.

And yet, there's an underlying anxiety that doubts......could this really be happening? It's surreal.......I feel a bit disconnected sometimes.

I am reminded daily that I am not in control. God is. Whatever happens is His will. Daily, I have to learn to trust again and leave my burdens at the foot of the cross. And to take it one day at a time.

For today, I accept that there is a beautiful, precious child of God, our little baby Sprout, inside of me and that his or her heart is beating strong and we are blessed.

No matter what happens, we are blessed. Beyond measure. Our God is good.

And we yearn for life, eternal life, that'll never fade, for all of our children...not just temporary earthly passings. Ultimately, to dwell in the presence of the house of the Lord forever.

We are blessed. So are Sprout's sister and brothers. They dance with Jesus every day and celebrate the high feast of the lamb in His presence. There is no pain or sorrow. And one day, we believe we will be there too, and all will be right!


~Shannon