10 months

J is ten months today. Ten precious months have passed. It's amazing how much I love her.

but it's still bittersweet.

Not a day goes by that I don't think of Samantha, Dominic, or Noah.

but we have a good God and heaven waits.

I think of them walking with Jesus and asking him curiously "when's our mommy going to get here?"

And I know that someday...when my eyes take in the sight of Jesus, I will be overjoyed......and that in the next glimpse...there will be three beautiful children....and I will run to them.

And all will be well.

This much is true and it's what I cling to on the darkest days.
This pain will not last forever.

I never knew what loss was until my babies were ripped away.

~S