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I am Shannon and my husband is Chris. This is a place to share and process struggles related to miscarriages, eating disorders, and Shannon's struggle with sexual abuse. We have found that joy, exempt of Christ, is often bittersweet in this life. We look forward to heaven where sweetness will abound and bitterness will be gone.







Thursday, October 7, 2010

Tears for what should have been

I took a lunch break today. I never take a lunch break. Not because I am a workaholic but because my work is so laid back and very rarely do I spend long days here so it makes sense to skip the break and eat down here. But I left the lab and took a break because I was feeling it today. I don't know what it is. I called Chris and cried on my lunch break.

Tears for what should have been
And what is
Tears for what I wish for
And what is
Tears for what I would give
And what is
Tears are all that's left

I should have been almost 15 weeks pregnant today. I wish for Samantha Peep to be back inside of me and filled with life. And I would give almost anything in the world for our baby. Just when I think I am feeling better, I lose it all over again. Will I ever feel better? Lord, I want my baby. But if I can't have my baby, then please, please grant me healing.

~Shannon
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