I feel very alone in this miscarriage, not being pregnant thing....A few of my friends are or might be pregnant or are trying....and I feel like an outcast. Because of the miscarriage. I never felt like an outcast before the miscarriage. I just hadn't been pregnant. I was certainly never planning on miscarrying. I don't know if all those feelings make sense but they are what they are.
I can't believe how much I can miss my little baby. It is just so hard for me to know that I should be almost 19 weeks along.....
Just when I take a step forward, I take one back...and I get sad all over again. I know that part of it is my hormones, part of it is the season (I get S.A.D) and that part of it is the holidays upcoming, and of course, the big part of it as my therapist J would say is that I lost my child. It's not easy to deal with that.
Shannon
I was thinking this morning about how you were 2 weeks ahead of me, which means you would have been almost half way done. I was sad for you :(. Samantha was very precious! My cousin is unable to get pregnant - the last attempt at the dr's ended in a miscarriage after just a few days. I told her if I have twins ever, she can have one. So...if I have triplets, you can have my other one!
ReplyDeleteI know, that doesn't really fix it, but I wish I could bring Samantha back for you! Since I can't, though, I'll just keep loving you and praying for you.
You're doing great, my sweet Shanny!