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I am Shannon and my husband is Chris. This is a place to share and process struggles related to miscarriages, eating disorders, and Shannon's struggle with sexual abuse. We have found that joy, exempt of Christ, is often bittersweet in this life. We look forward to heaven where sweetness will abound and bitterness will be gone.







Monday, February 14, 2011

My fourth child

Last Sunday, I found out that my fourth child was growing inside of me. I got a positive pregnancy test! What a thrill that was and yet it also sent fear coursing through me. It started many questions. Will I miscarry? Will this be my 'rainbow' baby? Will I get to bring this one home? When will the bleeding start? Will there be no bleeding this time? My head has been spinning. Almost too much to write. I was too scared to say anything. But it's been eight days since I got that positive. That's longer than it was with Noah and with Dominic. Samantha was in me for almost thirteen weeks. With Noah and Dominic, within a couple of days of knowing they existed, they were with Jesus. I have now been aware of baby Sprout for eight days and there haven't been any complications. I feel so blessed. But I am afraid to be too hopeful.

And yet I believe two things that have kept my hope and faith from running dry.

1. Nothing is impossible with God.
2. Nothing is too hard for the Lord.

Those two phrases remind me that anything can be done and nothing is too much work for God.

Please pray for us. We are nervous. But no matter what happens, God is good. He knows best and we love Him.

~Shannon
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3 comments:

  1. Sarah JoyFebruary 15, 2011 at 3:25 PM

    Was Samantha 13 weeks from your LMP? If so, you're already at like week 4, right??

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  2. UsFebruary 15, 2011 at 5:50 PM

    I am probably at 5-6 weeks now. Online calculators say I will reach 6 weeks this Friday.

    With Samantha, yes, it was how far pregnant I was. I was thirteen weeks along, meaning thirteen weeks from my period. However, with Samantha I started bleeding around the 6.5 week time mark. I am apprehensive, knowing I could start bleeding any minute. And feeling helpless.

    Totally trusting God. If I get through the first 12-13 weeks with no problems, I will be able to breathe a little more. We'll wait and see....Hoping for our rainbow baby.

    s

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  3. Sarah JoyFebruary 16, 2011 at 12:16 PM

    I love you, sweetie! It's ok to be nervous/apprehensive. The unknown is almost always scary - and even more so in this case! I'm counting with you. :)

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