A Variety of Things Going On

So I'm trying to be real here......

1. I hate sex. NOT really. But right now I do. There's too much anxiety for me surrounding it right now.

2. I can't seem to think about our anniversary without realizing that is when we conceived Samantha. It's not until July but still.

3. I adore my sister B. She sends me the sweetest texts at just the right time to say that she thinks I'm beautiful and that she loves me.

4. Yesterday was a good day but hard too. There was a baptism and I really, really, really struggled not to melt down. I couldn't melt down because I was on the stage as one of the worship leaders. But as I was looking at the little baby being baptized, I was wishing it was Samantha. It left me feeling a little wistful and then turned into anxiety for Sprout later that day.

5. My best friends are the best. I got to talk to B and E yesterday and it was such a blessed conversation. There are very few people in the world that I feel get me 100% and it's so great that my best friends do. I am blessed to have seven people (Chris, best friends, and my sister) who love me unconditionally, even when we don't always agree...we never disagree or fight. They understand I'm me...and accept me for that...and amazingly, love me for it. Thanks to my seven........

6. I love my mom. My mom and I had a fantastic number of conversations last week. I cried over some family stresses and frustrations and she was so empathic and encouraging. I can't wait to visit my family in a few weeks.

7. Christopher is incredible. I couldn't ask for more in a man. He is not perfect but he's so darn close. I have seen my husband grow tremendously in the past four months and I love him deeply. I know now how much God loves me because I am so blessed by him.

8. Our church family is as good to us as any family. I love our dear brothers n sisters, moms n dad, and grandparents in Christ. We feel so loved at our church and so blessed and such a part of the family of God. We wouldn't change a thing about the people who love us there.

9. Sprout will be 13 weeks tomorrow! Need I say more? I feel that I will be nervous until the next appointment...which is 15 days away.

10. Jesus is my all in all. He never gives me more than I can handle. I love you, Lord.

~Shannon