I am now 12.5 weeks pregnant. I measure my pregnant in full and half weeks. It makes it go quicker for me. I realize that my next measurement will be 13 weeks. How exciting is that?
I don't know if it's because I'm past the due date of Samantha but I am starting to be excited about baby Sprout. This one may make it home. Our doctor was fairly confident. Other sites have said that once you get past the point where you lost your child or something went wrong, it's a little easier to have peace over this child. So if you lost a child after birth, you may be unsettled until after birth and that time point has passed. This is a natural response to a loss and our ability to attempt to protect ourselves emotionally. It's okay that we feel that way. It is the consequence of living in a sinful world.
I am still a little apprehensive because I found out I had lost Samantha at the 13 week mark. Of course, she only measured in at 9 weeks so she'd probably been gone sooner but I am still a little apprehensive. However, I am not having any spotting, bleeding, or cramping. Something was wrong that first pregnancy...we'll never know what, but something was wrong. After I go to my next appointment at the 15 week mark, if we hear the heartbeat and get good news, then I think I might start to be able to breathe. It feels like these next 2.5 weeks will be really long but I am certain looking back on them that it won't feel that long. We are just trusting God and waiting on Him.
~Shannon
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